I am not confident about the details, somehow confidence seemed to be important while I was touching off a management type interview after the graduation. I was confident in all trivial matters all along, I thought I was quite knowledgeable with general and introductory ideas of subjects of interview,  but confidence required that I be confident in matters such as how to fix problems of a state or city – I didn’t know these subjects, I had no relation to myriads of such hypothetical or complex issues, but confidence was required. Of course a confident “no” is not easy in formal environments, some systems of philosophy would interpret it as contradictory – with common meanings of words.

Confidence has been a question since long. In real working life, this was used in sense of audacity, in a sense of guess work, while wading through postulations. For the most or probably almost all jobs, for the diligent,  There may not so many postulations that one worked through, so confidence was not an issue for everyday working life. In different business,  A confident sales rep usually is not the one who has diligently evaluated the pros and cons and delivers that info, a  confident one would be the one who delivers words as  certain and unique in some ways. Here one could be misleading and still be confident. Confidence is obviously not about misleading.

“If I say, the world will dance…”, it was a local  song playing in FM, targeted at the youths. How even the youth could handle this cheap and arrogant lyric? May be the lyric was delivered confidently, there was certainty and finality to the audacious declarations.

  Confidence is close to being certainty.  Certainty is not much of an issue for direct observations. However confidence is scrutinized for analytics. If an analytical system has assumption of certainty, then even trivial advocates of such system would come out as more confident. Conversely, just being confident  on matters of world is a statement of nature of analytics.  “If I say, the world will dance…”  is more than an individual opinion in a democratic setup, it is about the cultural setup with assumptions on analytics and certainty. 

   Vernacular literature in India has seen significant changes   post 2000s , with a new vigor – The  linguists, fiction writers, historians, columnists redefined the word “Hindutwa”,  as opposite of scientific ideas and temperament. An occasional physics professors, long time communists in maths depts joined them, but mostly it was led by people and arguments from “arts” pr humanities dept, these arts and culture people were driving “scientific” attitude . How did the humanity depts  connect with a subject that they ditched from childhood ? Certainty ! Pretense of predictive history, historical plans and its certainty – mostly  through race and genes. Confidence of dictatorial socialist  style . A faith in Certainty of racial connotations as conjured by colonists made an assumption of analytics, which was safely scientific in pre-hitler era.

In english language, pertaining to english civilization, where  they still have a queen even though marx lived there, a British snide could include words such as “pompous”, “arrogant” and similar . In colloquial usage, I  know a word with  direct affront to confidence in certainty, I know of no other living person who uses that word, generations ago the literary revolutionaries would have found the word Brahminical and would have stopped using it.

The 2000s were an interesting time – It could be in Indian history. Few times in Indian history would we have such a massive attack on non-criminal, highly educated apolitical people – that is the exploitive middle class, the upper castes, and the fascists – sometimes lead editors of national dailies justified them as worthy targets of islamic terrorism just because they had sinned enough by being middle class. Suddenly each mailing group discussing these, these derogatory terms driven by highly established old-men who failed the masses, India was breaking out of the pseudo ideas of public distribution with lot of energy, and there these almost retired men were finding a last chance to be relevant.

  One issue was islamism. It was a hot wire to mention this. For Kashmir, the extreme secularist was willing to concede that the Pakisthani state instrument of ISI or at worst Jagmohan was responsible for it.  They won the argument through brute force.  But chilling stuff was happening then….

  In London, in 2000, I met Sandhurst-trained Pakistani officers who had been recruited from here and were being sent back to Pakistan to instigate a military coup. – This, says a person who describes his means of knowing as “British members of HT also played crucial roles in exporting their group to Indonesia, Malaysia, Kenya, Mauritius, India, Egypt and Denmark, among others. I know because in each case I know the people who did it.”

   It was happening in India, and a worthless slave generation was finding the fascists in people who saw it. It wouldn’t be out of way to says these were the comrades in complementary to  sandhurst trained Pakisthani officers….

http://www.guardian.co.uk/commentisfree/2009/jun/21/hizb-ut-tahrir-pakistan-islamism'

Gandhiji continued to play fraud through such gimmicks and that was how he and the Congress party succeeded in depriving Dalits of certain special rights through the Poona Pact of December 24, 1932,'

  The above by Mayavati.quoting Ambedkar ! The Gandhians would have unleashed police had it been by a lesser mortal. They did that to a person who wrote a critique of Gandhi in vernacular language. This is not to say that Gandhi is not being criticized – He has been criticized for letting the partition happen with all its miseries. On the other hand so called dalit publication once brought up a book called Sepoy Gandhi. Many secularists have been going after Gandhi when they need maoist militias, while they themselves appropriate Gandhi on the other hand to give a different message to general population. There are publications on failures of Gandhi  from secular perspective - people who would have liked to unleash discredited material analysis on people , but for popularity of Gandhi.

    What was Gandhi doing so as to draw ire of Amedkar ? More importantly what was the British and Ambedkar doing when Gandhi lead the freedom movement ? Ambedkar for long periods was an employee of British. The British were stroking up anti-nationalist politics based on identity and the idea of race they invented in India. Gandhi opposed the division of population based on race and such stuff, British succeeded in stroking Pakisthan but failed to make riots in another two areas they had targeted. There idea was to weaken the opposition and culturally destroy their subjects. The reservations in area of voting rights were one such agenda.

  Ambedkar says “'Congress would only always remain like a step-mother to them'’, Jinnah used similar rhetoric to split Pakisthan and manage slaughter and displacement of about 5 million people. The idea was to make India sacrifice itself, be made ungovernable chaotic place lead by mafia acting according to  british contempt's. People at that time rejected Ambedkar. If Ambedkar succeeded, it is far from certain that that Mayawati would be CM. Other possibility include a male leading a bankrupt dalit vote bank. A stronger party structure rather than the weak party affiliation that lead to regular govt changes through voting.

“Chasi Mulia Adivasi” union members have forcibly occupied 400-500 acres of “non-tribal” land …… 4000 members carried their “traditional weapons” to spread fear and terror in the area.

   The above is rough translation of front page news published in an influential Gandhian news paper ( samaja-16th June). The “traditional weapon” was celebrated when ManMohan Singh gave it to some people in a cultural ceremony in north east. It was a front page news. However their Top Broker, Manu Bhai Patel found a “fascist” in Vajpayee when he gave a sword in a traditional Jath ceremony. Gandhian dalals talk of non-violence when their party is not in power. By holding that traditional sword, Vajpayee had become a fascist equivalent, un-gandhian. How long these Gandhian imposters would fool themselves and the world is still an open question.

  This is not mere hypocrisy, rather it is close to a modern instrument of war. if the above eulogizes Maoists,The same tactics have been used elsewhere, the idea is to find unsuspecting people and give them an ideology of historical injustice, bribe them with free land to buy there loyalty for atleast a generation. Destructive political doctrines spread from imperial revolutionaries of london have surprisingly left london  with its queen. These are racists. Take away the race, wealth of london may as well be redistributed forcibly by the govt.

Long back I had built a poetry website, in vernacular languages. It had a Java applet, I had also tested a activex control, to add poetry dynamically through web forms. Only one font was available, Those days Java scripts were used for lesser purpose, mysql was not in horizon, it stored poetry in flat files. My web page declared a single line in its main page, to increase understanding through language.

That sentiment was echoed by my friend – an author and literature professor, when I accompanied him to a Sarala Awards ceremony, a literary award carrying 2.5 lakhs prize money. Literature removes all differences, it enlightens – He declared jokingly to lighten me up. Less than two hours later, I repeated the opposite, Sir, Literature also could instantly add poison in an otherwise benign evening, I said to him. He almost agreed for a moment, though literature is half his life, and I won't insist it to him in normal times.

It was story of a destitute, with a heavy and inspiring voice, the Sarala award winner started delivering his acceptance speech. The awardee mentioned how he is not associated with any organization lifelong, and is in debt. How he is going on inspite of his poverty, homelessness at the old age, his fathers house crumbling in his village. How he is going on with the poverty, carried by his arrogance of poetry,  in spite the publishers occupying air conditioned offices and not paying enough money. With language of lifetime’s experience it potentially could bring tear to half a mortal, I asked my friend, was this guy unemployed through out ? No, he is a retired professor, my friend said. It meant the professor had a dream job during his life time, just below the top notch IAS officers. As a retired professor, he would be eligible for one of the best pension rates, usually good enough to feed a couple of people with comfort.

  The recipient of the prestigious Sarala award was delivering his rant against the publishers in AC rooms, oblivious to his  surroundings, incidentally AC  in the top public auditorium of the city was much better than an window conditioner in a small office. It is as if, he was doing a favor, yet to bring out the worst. What followed was a rant against traitors, a rant against sanskrit, a rant against one of the popular sanskrit slokas…”Traitors” – These were the people who remained silent when a person composed an extremely humble  Sanskrit sloka to lord Jagganath. In the finest traditions of colonial machinations,  It was a linguistic war against the mother language of Bharat. Oblivious to the scandals of racial  linguistic nationalism, a subject that has made languages cheap, common – if the commonness means sexual innuendoes of a college going brat, if it means rage of alienated then that rage  perpetrates the linguistic culture. Lack of acknowledgement of his superbly air-conditioned surroundings of the auditorium, that most low priced publishers would lack is one thing. It is another level of fanaticism and deception  to impose expectation on history, that the “traitors” should have insulted people imparting knowledge in sanskrit, which they themselves practiced, and perhaps indulged in a degraded macaulayian linguistic analysis for fostering colonialism[ By silent practice, instead they should have  learned english].

By the end, this author and recipient of  prestigious Sarala prize said not a paragraph on his creations. Probably they were not his fascinations to begin with. Probably the colonial history of racial linguistic attracted him more. By end, I was almost incapable to raise my hand for a final clap. The poverty sticken professor had made history poor, Filled the present with desperation and discomfort. In the beggining, a speaker had said how we would be connecting with the world through literature. We connected with it indeed, the slanderous history of racial linguistic analysis.

In the audience, there was a distinguished gentleman, Mr Sitakanta Mohapatra, people from the podium specifically addressed him to greet in speeches. Few years back I had read a story by Mr Mohapatra on his visit to Harvard, and how one Prof Witzel took care to show him around the university. Prof Witzel of Harvard is an expert and world leader of modern times  in converting Indian story to a racist linguist one, in deplorable traditions of Max Mueller. Mr Mohapatra’s effusive praise on Witzel had no space to write these inconvenient aspects. The access is a big thing for such trivialities as insulting one’s own story. Perhaps we are still waiting to be civilized, not much options left than to getting civilized, if a senior retd IAS officer has teamed up with Prof Witzel, we get finest bureaucracy of colonialism expressed in literature.